Well, I can hardly believe it is true! I have actually lived twice as long as I thought I would! I never expected to live to see 20, let alone 30! Now here it is, the day I celebrate God's grace on my 40th birthday! There have been so very many chances for me to lose my life, yet, here I am, still pulling pranks and telling horrible jokes! (Even if they are not shark jokes!) You see, as a high school graduate I moved to Kansas for a while. I needed to know what would happen to me if I did not have God in my life. I quickly reverted into the wild life I knew before moving in with my God given family. I started drinking, smoking and doing drugs, even more than before. Wild orgies and partying were a part of normal life. One night we had to buy our coke (cocaine) from a new source- our normal guy was caught and in prison. It costed a bit more, but we had no one else to buy from. So, we partied into the night. as the evening wore on and the pot wore off, we took out the coke and started to sniff lines.We took the normal 2 lines each till it was all gone. Then it started to hit us.What we didn't know was that the coke we bought was not cut near as much as the stuff we were use to. It was really pure. We all took more than twice the normal amount of coke! We all got hit at the same time. We were laying on the floor, all were wide eyed with terror. Not a one of us could move! I remember the feeling of my heart beating slower and slower, and how my lungs were protesting every breath. I felt no pain, I felt nothing at all! As I felt myself drifting off to sleep, I remember praying, "Dear Jesus! Please let me survive this night and I will give you back my life. I will NEVER touch drugs again. I will share my story and give you the glory for saving me." Then everything went black.
I woke up the next morning, fairly surprised to be alive at all. I called home to Mom and asked to be able to return home. I knew I would need the support of the church to get and stay clean. I threw all my stuff into my car, and left right away. I do not know if anyone else died or survived. I just knew I needed to get away from there.
I have no idea exactly where I spent the next week, detoxing. Maybe that is a good thing. I do remember meeting up with some friends that went to college in Kansas and driving back to PA with them. I do remember that the first bit of time back home was filled with nightmares, and strong cravings for drugs. But I was determined to keep my promise to the Lord. I spent a lot of time praying, reading the Bible and excersizing to burn the extra energy from the shakes!
God was good! He saved my life, and I did indeed live to see 20! The past 20 years have been filled with all the bonuses I never expected to have. God has been so good to me. Every one of my dreams has become a reality. Every desire of my heart He has seen fit to allow to become real. And more!! My life is so blessed, I hardly know what to say. Every valley that I have gone through I have felt the hand of God leading me on. When I was too weak to go, I felt the presence of friends and family supporting me and carrying me. Through thick and thin (both situations and my body shape) I have been truely blessed to feel and know God's leading.
So, now I am blessed with a beautiful family, daughter and son, and such a wonderful husband! We have been through so much, and he still says "I love you". He still comes home at night, and gives me a hug and kiss. (and sometimes more!;P) All that we have ever dreamed of has come true, we are truely blessed and we know it!
On this, the 40th anniversary of my birth, I want to say, " Thanks, Lord Jesus! You are the most blessed thing that has happened to me, for me and in me. I give You the glory for allowing me to live this long. I give you the glory for the joy in my life, and I thank You for all the blessings you have given me. It's all your fault! Thanks!"
I woke up the next morning, fairly surprised to be alive at all. I called home to Mom and asked to be able to return home. I knew I would need the support of the church to get and stay clean. I threw all my stuff into my car, and left right away. I do not know if anyone else died or survived. I just knew I needed to get away from there.
I have no idea exactly where I spent the next week, detoxing. Maybe that is a good thing. I do remember meeting up with some friends that went to college in Kansas and driving back to PA with them. I do remember that the first bit of time back home was filled with nightmares, and strong cravings for drugs. But I was determined to keep my promise to the Lord. I spent a lot of time praying, reading the Bible and excersizing to burn the extra energy from the shakes!
God was good! He saved my life, and I did indeed live to see 20! The past 20 years have been filled with all the bonuses I never expected to have. God has been so good to me. Every one of my dreams has become a reality. Every desire of my heart He has seen fit to allow to become real. And more!! My life is so blessed, I hardly know what to say. Every valley that I have gone through I have felt the hand of God leading me on. When I was too weak to go, I felt the presence of friends and family supporting me and carrying me. Through thick and thin (both situations and my body shape) I have been truely blessed to feel and know God's leading.
So, now I am blessed with a beautiful family, daughter and son, and such a wonderful husband! We have been through so much, and he still says "I love you". He still comes home at night, and gives me a hug and kiss. (and sometimes more!;P) All that we have ever dreamed of has come true, we are truely blessed and we know it!
On this, the 40th anniversary of my birth, I want to say, " Thanks, Lord Jesus! You are the most blessed thing that has happened to me, for me and in me. I give You the glory for allowing me to live this long. I give you the glory for the joy in my life, and I thank You for all the blessings you have given me. It's all your fault! Thanks!"
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The hand of God is certainly on you, Miki. I am so glad God chose us to be your family these past 26 years.
Love, Mom
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